I have to just be me

Feeling in a weird mood tonight. I haven't blogged in a while and needed to vent a bit, so I thought I could come on here and post a quote that is relatable that I got reacquainted with tonight. "I want you to know me, who I really am.

 I've tried so hard to push this feeling away and keep it locked inside but everyday just feels like a war. That I walk around so mad at the world but i'm really just fighting with myself…i don't want to fight anymore. i'm just too tired. I have to just be me."

 This whole quote and the whole scene it goes with...it kills me.

 "Everyone has secrets, they are called secrets for a reason."

 I know I should stop typing now, even though it is doubtful that anyone will read this, but it's hard. No one wants to go around living a lie, hiding what you feel to try to not upset and let down other people. People grow up and find themselves. Realize what makes them happy, what makes them want to get up in the morning and excited about something. My question is, what is the point where you sacrifice your happiness for the happiness of your loved ones? What if what makes you smile also makes your family frown? These situations are mostly lose/lose and what have caused many depressing nights when the thought won't wonder from my mind.

 Anyway, just food for thought for the night.