Well, i've always loved The Dirty Guv'nahs and this song. I've had another favorite song (The Country) but lately i've really been enjoying this one. I remember hearing it last week on my way to interning and thought I should make a post about it. I can pretty much relate to almost all the lyrics...so i'll just let the song do the rest of the talking.
So, there is a topic that I have kinda wanted to write about on a few occasions now, but like Kelly Ann said, the internet isn't the place to discuss personal matters (although this blog is basically just that.) I know this will just be a pointless post since I will indeed not be writing on a topic, but i'm sure some sort of breakdown is impending....and I will write about this matter eventually. In the mean time, i'm really looking forward to hanging out with annie for a little while once I am done with school!
I am writing amidst my film fest high right now!! I just got done working the film fest tonight and it was such a good time!! I only worked as an usher (collecting tickets, handing out ballots, and whatnot) but it was such a fun night! There were 2 of us manning each door right across from another door and it just so happened where the staff were set up was also right next to our doors, so with the four of us at the doors all night and staff randomly jumping in, it made for well a conversed shift! It was so awesome to be around a group of people that love film as much as I do! Not only the people I was talking with but everyone attending. Everyone loved and appreciated film and being able to see the actual directors from the movies there and introducing the films it was just exciting...not to mention some of the actors as well. I specifically talked to another girl (who is also graduating from Belmont in 2 weeks) across from me for a while tonight about how awesome it would be to work on a movie and how now is the time to at least try succeed. Not only her, but the other guy across from me, and a random guy who actually worked on one of the films jumping in the conversation in encouragement of me working on a film as a PA...even a feature film. It encourages me a lot when especially people in the business are encouraging like that, which has happened at least a couple times recently. For example I haven't mentioned this anywhere but I met up with one of the location scouts for the "nashville" pilot that filmed here in Nashville for a little while and she was way encouraging! As well as another girl from the art department who also worked on the pilot (and graduated from Belmont.) Not only am I encouraged when people in the biz encourage me, but when I can help and encourage others. On two separate occasions today I had people ask me how I did it...had all the information I did and the contacts I had already made. It made me feel like I was already a step ahead in the business that people were now asking me for advice. It was kinda cool. But anyway, now I am just about to go on a website the box office gave me to see if I can get some more free tickets for the festival! But I just wanted to come on here and get out all my excitement! Can't wait to continue this journey into the film world!
Earlier this week I bought a new album from the band Of Monsters and Men. I had only really heard one of their songs (Little Talks) but I really liked the sound so I previewed their album on iTunes and quickly made a purchase. One song, however, was giving me trouble when i tried to download it. It said file corrupt. I had to go a few days with this song in limbo, but eventually I had someone else download it on their computer and just e-mail me the song. Turns out, this song is now my new favorite. I really love this whole album. The sound is just great. Some of the lyrics are really artistic and the meaning can get lost for me with the awesome sound and my dimwittedness, but this song in particular has great lyrics as well as the great sound that I cherish in all their songs, so I figured it would be appropriate to post on here (since, after all, lyrics are heavily featured on all my music posts) So anyway, if you feel so obliged, I would definitely at least go preview their album on iTunes because it is great. But for now I will leave you with this gem, called Slow and Steady. And my new favorite.
the lights go out, i am all alone
all the trees outside are buried in the snow i spend my night dancing with my own shadow and it holds me and it never lets me go i move slow and steady but i feel like a waterfall yea i move slow and steady past the ones that i used to know
my dear old friend, take me for a spin
two wolves in the dark running in the wind i’m letting go But i’ve never felt Better passing By all the monsters in my head
and i move slow and steady But i feel like a waterfall
yea i move slow and steady past the ones that i used to know and i’m never ready cause i know, i know, i know that time won’t let me show what i want to show
and i move slow and steady but i feel like a waterfall
yea i move slow and steady past the ones that i used to know
and i’m never ready cause i know, i know, i know that time won’t let me show what i want to show
I just discovered this song today when I was on iTunes previewing the Of Monsters and Men album (which, by the way, is really great) I'm not exactly sure how I came about it, it might have been in my recommended section, but I have already listened to it multiple times today. I always go through this thing when listening to songs; the very first time I hear a song it is basically just background music, then if I like it I sit down and actually listen to it. I bought the song because I knew I already liked Trent Dabbs and Amy Stroup and the song title drew me in. The more I listened to the song the more I have grown to love it. The feel, the sound, the lyrics. It mellows me out. Not even taking any other part of the lyrics into consideration, there is just something about the chorus, "wouldn't you like to know, the odds of being alone" that sounds so honest and pure that I can connect with. I have spent much of my time these past few years being alone, which i'm ok with and quite enjoy, but I often times wonder my odds of being alone for the rest of my life. And not in just a relationship since, but with friends too. I mean given my situation, i've basically come to terms with the fact that i'm just gonna be single forever, so that's unfortunate, but how alone AM I going to be? What ARE my odds? I kinda WOULD like to know. But, I guess that's life and if we knew the answers it just wouldn't be any fun. I have faith though that everything happens for a reason and alone or not, i'm excited for this next chapter in my life.
Lyrics:
Watching your world spin
Feel farther from it now
With nowhere to begin how are you to figure it out
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Yeah
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know Wouldn't you like to know the odds of being alone Alone The odds of being alone Alone
Learning goodbyes
It's never easy love
The harder we try can never be enough
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Yeah
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know the odds of being alone
Alone
The odds of being alone
Alone
I need answers now 'cause I am caught off guard
The quiet feels so loud
Tell me this is the hardest part
Tell me this is the hardest part
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to know the odds of being alone
Alone
The odds of being alone
Alone
The odds of being alone
I remember the first time I ever heard this song. I was actually in Canada this summer...I think in some restaurant and of course I got so excited because I could've sworn it was Shania Twain. Turns out, it was and when I got a chance to actually listen to all the lyrics, I liked it even more. Every time I heard this song I would remind myself that I wanted to feature this on my blog here...and today is the day. There have been (many) times throughout the past couple months when I've felt scared, defeated, and uncertain about my future...today was one of those days. Every time I hear this song, it makes me feel better and encourages me to not get down and keep plugging away. Fortunately, this song came up on my walk back from class, and I think it was just a sign...or a great reminder, if you will, that things in life are gonna be hard, but if you have something you wanna do, go out and do it!!
I messaged one of the production assistants from The Hunger Games a couple days ago, asking how he got his start in the business and any advice, and then I e-mailed the script supervisor as well. Turns out...today really is my day. I woke up to a reply from the script supervisor who had a lot of helpful things to say and told me to keep in touch monthly. I just got back from my last class and I get an e-mailing saying I got a message back on that film page where I messaged that production assistant...he responded that he would love to talk to me and might even be able to get me a job and to call him. Well, I just got off the phone with him and he seemed nice and eager to talk on the phone, however he was still on set and I told him he could call me back at his convenience (he said he would be on set for another 4 hours or so.) So anyway, although out of nowhere today I kinda got this huge "oh great, nothing is going to work out" feeling, I am encouraged after just once phone call...where nothing even really happened. So from now on, if I ever start to feel defeated again (which I know will happen a lot sooner than later) I will just turn this song on and remember that things do turn around. Don't quit. Part of the fun IS the climb. This is one rather untraditional path i've wanted to follow, so i'm gonna just gonna go out there and give it all I got. Do the best I can and have fun doing it.
You got what it takes you can win, Today is your day to begin. Don't give up here, don't you quit. The moment is now, this is it Know that you can then you will Get to the top of the hill Part of the fun is the climb You just gotta make up your mind
That today is your day
And nothing can stand in your way
Today is your day
Everything's goin' your way
Today (you can do it)
Today (c'mon c'mon)
Today (c'mon do it)
Today
When somebody throws sticks and stones
All they can break are your bones
And life's gonna kick you around
Then kick you again when you're down
But today is your day
And nothing can stand in your way
Today is your day
Everything's goin' your way
Today (c'mon do it now)
Today
Today
Today
mmmm life's gonna kick you, its gonna kick you around, its gonna kick you down
Brush yourself off no regrets This is as good as it gets Don't expect more or less Just go out and give it your best (give it your best)
Today is your day
And nothing can stand in your way
Today is your day
Everything's goin' your way
Today
Today ( I said today is your day)
Today
Today
I said today
Today
Today is your day mmmmm
This is one blog post that i've wanted to write since the day I got back from my first day of shooting the movie i'm helping with. Time wasn't in my favor, spring break intervened, but tonight after taking the coba kat, it reminded me of how much I now truly despise business and would love to be elsewhere...like back on set.
My first day on set was a week from last Saturday...so the third. I wasn't entirely sure what to expect since I hadn't really been on a movie set before, but I was very excited to find out. We have now already finished our second weekend of shooting and thankfully the experience hasn't let me down or not met up to my expectations...or hopeful expectations at least. Anyway, some of you might be wondering what it is that I exactly do on set, well I will tell you. My official title is PA, production assistant. I guess it really varies on which production and who you are working for as to what you do, but basically, whatever anyone on production needs you to do. I will start off with day one and kind of just run through some of my tasks as of yet: making sure props are on set and with the correct actors, for 2 of the 3 locations we were shooting in the first day I had to jump in as an extra, make sure the actors are either on set or notified to be on set, being an actor stand in while the cameras are setting up the scene with camera placement and lighting, in charge of the slate ((See picture above) I keep track of which scene/take we are doing and writing it on the little board that I hold in front of the camera before the scene is shot), holding up the lighting board for outside scenes (to reflect more sunlight on the actors for better lighting), and just whatever anyone else needs in general. I know this might sound like an odd job aspiration for some people, but I am honestly loving it. (And when I say job aspiration, this would just be entry level, post-graduation, most feasible job i'm looking for.) It's true there are long hours and the long running joke on film sets is "ready, set, wait" since there is a lot of sitting around and waiting, but I really don't mind. To be honest I quite like the long hours. I know it is mainly because of the company I keep during these long hours, so I am fortunate I like everyone else helping out with the movie. Both the crew and the cast have great attitudes and work ethics and we actually have been working ahead of schedule most days, which is always nice. I really hate to go back to Glee here because i'm sure you are sick of me mentioning it, but it just popped in my head. On the pilot episode Rachel told/asked her teacher, "Being part of something special making you special, right?" And I kind of feel that. I like the feeling again of being part of a team, working with other people to produce this project that we can be proud of, that we know took time and attention, but together we made it happen. I think I will always remember one day after lunch I was sitting in the classroom and Tommy, the director of photography, and Eric, the other camera guy walked out of the room and I was still just sitting at the table listening in on another conversation and Tommy asks if I was coming...I didn't know that he wanted me to, and he said yeah, we're a team now! So Tommy, Eric and I went outside to set up the scene and it is just little things like that that make me want to do this so badly. After that first weekend I knew for sure that this was what I wanted to do. Leaving set, although yeah, I was a little tired, but I was happy. I had a day full of laughing, feeling somewhat productive, being a part of creating this movie, and just hanging out with fun people. I actually couldn't believe some people did this for a living. Now, I know you can't really make a living off being a PA because since they are at the bottom of the totem poll on any film set, they don't get paid great, but i'm ok with that and I am also ok with getting by with very little and even picking up a part-time job to keep it going. Well, I was going to mention the COBA KAT tonight and my business classes and how I honestly could care less, but given the fact of what I have just written about my experience on set so far, I guess it all could go without saying. I know this whole business thing has been something I've been feeling for a while now, so it is not new, but it just makes me more and more thankful with every class and test I take that I was able to find and latch onto something that I truly care and am passionate about. Whenever I had to sit through those finance, marketing, and now strategic management classes almost all I could really think about was, I honestly didn't care. I had/have no interest in finance and I don't think I could even tell you what in the world was on that COBA KAT I just took. I can't. I just can't get into business. But what I can is film, and i'm so glad it finally made its way to me. I can't wait again still filming again on Saturday, but then again, the sooner and more we film the sooner it will be done! ...hmm, maybe someone is making something in April I can out with! :)
